Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Likes

I'm working really late tonight (my own fault), so I have decided to take a break and share with the four of you who actually read this some of the things that I like. I mean, we all know what we "like." But make a list. It will make you happy.

I like the following:

-Not working late. haha.

-My Mac.

-My house.

-Ephesians

-When I hit a line so perfectly that I want to give myself a gold star

-My growing vinyls collection

-Unexpected phone calls

-Refreshing tears

-Colorado at night

-My secret star gazing spot. I'm quite positive that just sitting there and staring into the crickety-silence has changed my life.

:)

Raw

Each day of this week has literally felt like almost a month. Maybe that's why I've blogged so much.

I have cried every day. Sometimes horrible tears. Sometimes tears of amazement.

When this week is over I will authoritatively be able to say it was a long week. I'm already exhausted. And I have SO MUCH to do today.

Listening to the Relevant Magazine's radio station. It makes many things a little better.

There's a new Mediterranean restaurant by my work. I'm thinking that sounds divine.

Also, the skin is basically raw on my right thumb from texting. Unhappiness.

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

And today?

On docket for today?

Wondering what on earth happened yesterday.

Allowing myself to be disappointed, but refusing to deny hope.

Having a very sad suspicion that he changed his mind. Remembering how much this happens. Questioning everything about that.

Not blaming myself for all of this.

Listening.

Crying.

Working.

Monday, June 28, 2010

Being.

On docket for today:

Leaving work at 2.

Decompressing before the GRE at 4. (!!!)

Asking for prayers.

Begging for mercy.

Hoping this goofy headache goes away.

Breathing very slowly.

Being ready to be done.

Being happy.

Thursday, June 24, 2010

Land Locked. And I like him.

Hello fellow photographers,

I would like to say that owning an SLR does not make you a professional, or semi-professional photographer. I mean, you can be 'good,' but you can't just pick up your camera and believe that you have a profession coming your way. Sorry; not the way it works. I'm not EVEN pretending that I'm pro. I simply like taking good pictures.

Love,

Maren



Anywoo, it's Thursday. I typed Friday and then backspaced my way to Thursday. Whoops. I usually sleep in on Fridays and meander into the office a tad late. Not the case tomorrow. I'm playing HR girl and interviewing two people for a vacancy I am soon to have for a major part of my paper. So I need to be at the office by 8. Ha. Sakes alive. (What does that even mean?)

I read all of my blog posts yesterday and found out that almost every one, or every other one, since January had me complaining about my lack of beautiful office chairs. And now-- I HAVE THEM. When I say Praise the Lord, I mean it. I genuinely think God saved them for me. I walk into my office and smile subconsciously. That's how much I love them. But now I lack a major aspect of my blogs. This is a problem. Guess I'll have to find something else to talk about.

It's also funny to read the ups and downs of the blog, which are a roller coaster directly related to boys. It's time for that to stop. Granted, there's one I like right now. But I hope maturity and boundaries will stop me from dying every time something goes wrong. That's not a self-fulfilling prophecy; I refuse for it to be. Bottom line: There's a great guy on the horizon. I have a *sneaking* suspicion that he might like me back a tad. We'll see what happens. That's it. And it's pretty comforting. The future is not in my hands. I'll follow the big One until he says something. And it'll be okay.

I walked into my office today and showed off my incredibly modest shorts (seriously) and then got dogged for wearing them on casual day. Like, are you kidding? No appointments. Just office work. I have dresses shorter than the shorts I'm wearing. Blurg.

When I'm bored or on a brain freeze in my office, I walk around and use my Imperial Duncan Yo-Yo. I don't know if this helps me clear anything out of my head, but it sure makes my brain quiet down. I'm really bad. Ha. Of all the things to "be bad at," mine might be yo-yo-ing.

Usually summer stories are so slow in coming. I had THREE this week. Another praise. And I had all of them written in two hours. That is a glorious thing.

Today I wish I was road-tripping. Mostly so I could listen to music and sleep the entire time.

And he's road tripping today. Ha. Pathetic? A little. :)

I wish Colorado wasn't land locked. I miss the water. Especially during this season of life, I miss the water so much. My parents and little sister are on the Oregon Coast this weekend. Words cannot express my jealousy, or, in this case, my longing. I've said it before: I think the sound of the waves is the closest I'll ever hear to God talking aloud.

Jack Johnson came out with a new CD a few weeks ago. I love, love, love the song "Only the Ocean." I'm a Mountain girl. But gees. I need some water.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-l0UdsIPsJ4

Listen. Beautiful.

Happy Thursdays to all.





Wednesday, June 23, 2010


So please, please, please
Let me, let me, let me
Let me get what I want
This time



Thursday, June 17, 2010

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l1O_Jf_fdkI&feature=related

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

And may I remember that happiness, and above all, his faithfulness, on weeks like this.

Thursday, June 10, 2010

Ridiculously Ridiculous

It is ridiculously ridiculous how fast things change. How you hold something in your mind for so long and it crashes down with feverish fury when the cards fall into place- or when Jesus lines them up.

I'm happy today. Genuinely happy.