Interminable Wisdom

"Rivers know this; there is no hurry.

We shall get there someday."

-Pooh

Babykins

Someday I shall adopt a cat. It's name shall be Babykins, and it will be mine. My Babykins.

First Day

Today I'm a kid on their first day of school.

I have a relative idea of what's going to happen. Granted, I don't know where I'm going to sit or how many of my friends will be in homeroom, but those are just details.

I picked out what to wear days ago, naturally.

But what if the other kids think I'm dressed weird? What if all of the other girls burst into these blobs of unfathomable beauty over the summer and I still look like I'm a 5th grader?

What if no one talks to me?

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And then, what if it's the best day of my recent life?

What if the new boy is a total hottie and the seating chart was a gift from above?

What if I'm the one that turned into a blob of unfathomable beauty?

At the end of the day I'll go home and marinate in my day-good or bad. If it's bad, I'll cry, tell my mom and go to sleep. Then I'll get up and hope for a different tomorrow. But if it's a good day, I'll cry that it's over, tell my mom and get up and hope for an even better tomorrow.

I think that this "first day" is going to be a good thing.

But I hope nobody can tell that my heart's racing.

Truth is...

I do know what I want. Exactly what I want.

Don't know how it's coming about. Don't want to say anymore about it. But I'm covered. And I'm at peace.

And thank you, Jesus.

Funny Thing

So I beg that I'll get what I want. Find what I "want."

But funny thing- I don't know what the hell I want.

Likes

I'm working really late tonight (my own fault), so I have decided to take a break and share with the four of you who actually read this some of the things that I like. I mean, we all know what we "like." But make a list. It will make you happy.

I like the following:

-Not working late. haha.

-My Mac.

-My house.

-Ephesians

-When I hit a line so perfectly that I want to give myself a gold star

-My growing vinyls collection

-Unexpected phone calls

-Refreshing tears

-Colorado at night

-My secret star gazing spot. I'm quite positive that just sitting there and staring into the crickety-silence has changed my life.

:)

Raw

Each day of this week has literally felt like almost a month. Maybe that's why I've blogged so much.

I have cried every day. Sometimes horrible tears. Sometimes tears of amazement.

When this week is over I will authoritatively be able to say it was a long week. I'm already exhausted. And I have SO MUCH to do today.

Listening to the Relevant Magazine's radio station. It makes many things a little better.

There's a new Mediterranean restaurant by my work. I'm thinking that sounds divine.

Also, the skin is basically raw on my right thumb from texting. Unhappiness.